To Bijoux with love

Dear Bijoux,

Today when mommy was crossing the road to hail a taxi mommy saw a kitten. She's probably younger than you with a size of mommy's palm. Her right eye is blind. She's so small and I bet she's hungry. She wanted to follow me.. and sniffing my feet. I'm touched but what could I do. Mommy's on the way to Rab'ah and couldn't carry her home. You are so close to getting a sister.

I just want to tell you that, thank you for being in my life. I know you hate mommy so much for not letting you out to play, but I did it for u. It hurts my heart to see how u are so excited to see the sky and the birds, but I have to keep u inside. I'm sorry Bijoux. I don't know what to do. Maybe later mommy can take you out for a picnic.

I want you to be grateful for u are loved by my sisters, you are fed. You are promised to be in heaven for you are a cat. And I'm blessed for having u inside my home.

Bijoux, though you are alone, but I'm always with u. but Mommy IS alone and only have you. We have each other. And please Bijoux dear, don't hurt me like how the other people hurt me. Don't leave me for someone else like other people did to me.

Bijoux dear, human can be extremely evil sometimes. They can use word to tell lies, to tell jokes, to make fun, to criticize, to label others.. please be thankful to Lord that u can only purr. You are saved. I am saved.

To my lovely, lovely Bijoux.. thank you for teaching me how to love without expectation. To care without hoping for anything. Thank You for letting me to love again. After so many people that i cared for is now far away, you are my closest friend. I'm glad God chose me to be ur mommy.

love,

mommy